Nathan Crookston, 2006 Luminaria Ceremony Speaker

My Deal With Cancer

12-Year-Old Cancer Survivor

Last year when I started 5th grade I didn’t know that a kid could get cancer.  For a couple of months a lump in my right thigh kept getting bigger.  My mom said the lump would go away.  When it got so big that I named it Mt. Crookie, my mom took me to a doctor.  The doctor said it was a lump of fat (a lypoma) and not to worry about it.  Mt. Crookie started hurting and I didn’t like having it on my leg.   My mom took me to a surgeon to see if he could take it out.  He did a biopsy, and on April 1, 2005, I was diagnosed with cancer.  I thought everybody who got cancer died.

I met Dr. Tishler at Children’s Hospital.  He said we could fight cancer.  He told me about chemo, and surgery.  It was a little hard to understand everything, but I learned that fighting cancer was going to take a long time. 

I found out that chemo makes you really sick, and it made my hair fall out.  At first I didn’t like being bald because some kids made fun of me.  After a while I got used to it and I even liked being bald.  I liked not having to comb my hair. 

Every three weeks I had to go get chemo.  Chemo was so gross.  Sometime I was in the hospital for three days and sometimes I was there for six days.  It went back and forth between short and long chemo treatments.   My mom said we were fighting a war and each chemo was a battle.  I had a lot of battles.  When I was home I had to get a lot of shots, blood draws and home IV’s.  Sometimes in between chemos I had to go to the hospital for blood transfusions, platelets or fevers.   I have had more needles in me than all the people in my family put together. 

After three months of chemo I had to have surgery.  That was really scary because the doctor was going to have to take out so much of the muscle in my leg.  I told him I didn’t want to have the surgery, but he said he had to do it to save my life.  It was another battle.  Then the day before the surgery, I found out that the chemo worked so well that the surgery wasn’t going to take so much muscle.  I still had to have a big chunk taken out, but now I have a really cool scar. 

After surgery I had to have nine more months of chemo.  I had my last chemo in the middle of April of this year.  It took a lot of battles, but I am a survivor and I won the war against my cancer.  I didn’t win on my own.  I couldn’t have done it without Dr. Tishler and his team, and all of the nurses and other people at Children’s Hospital.  I couldn’t have done it without the American Cancer Society and all the research that had been done before to help with cancer treatments.  I couldn’t have done it without my family and friends and those who supported me.

Last year my parents took me to the Luminaria ceremony at the Relay for Life.  I had just finished a round of chemo and I didn’t feel well.  My dad carried me around the track because I felt so weak and sick.  I am so thankful that this year I can walk on my own.  I am so thankful to be a survivor.  I want to help the American Cancer Society raise money so that better cancer treatments can be found.  I hope that someday there will be a cure for cancer.  That is why we need to do the Relay for Life.  I’m grateful that I get to see another day.

“My mom said we were fighting a war

and each chemo was a battle.”